Contentment, Aloofness - Day 17
there is no way only 24 minutes remain on this laptop battery. it goes from 1 hour to 1 minute in less than an hour!!!!1111
tonite for dinner we had chapati and a beef stew to dip it in. i like chapati and the stew, and i probably could have eaten twice as much.
ice floes like a river unabashedly taciturn but firm, planted in its ways, unlikely to waver or falter. i wish i was that ice floe. it keeps its chin up. it plays to its strengths. it moves slow enough to think. it surrounds itself with friends. it wakes up for the sunrise and never misses a sunset. it understands that life is precious and death can come at any time. so it goes about its daily routine not knowing whether or not its the last. it lives every day like its the last by treating everything as if its their first. it is so content in its routine that whether or not today is its last day on earth does not determine the expectations and schedule for the day. it is an appreciator and a creator. it goes to bed knowing it gave the world all it could today, and it thanks the world for what she gave it. as the sun sets, the ice floe goes to bed with a heart cradled by silicone and springs, absorbing shocks and falls. buoyant. radiating with life.
what does it mean to be content? can you help me with this? i don’t want to be ignorant and turn a blind eye to the outer world. i know and understand too much for that to work and allow me contentment. i desire a soft heart, light and buoyant. i desire love and to radiate love, and i realize that what i see in others is what i see in myself. how i view the world is how i view myself.
it’s mom’s bday today. nice to talk with her.
