why can i not catch my breath? always short of breath lately. am i eating too much? pressure on the old lungs? di dunno. it’s annoying though. i want it to stop. i want easy breathing. i shouldn’t have to think about it, ya know? just one of those things that should be automatic. but instead i have to take these random deep breaths and i consciously must, at that…….
part of me feels disenchanted with carving out a hyperspecific dissertation, and the other part of me thinks, if i found something i enjoyed that much, i would love it. absolutely.
climate change is real and needs to be stopped. a tangible, practical thing. no sense in overthinking things in some philosophy class, climate change needs to be stopped.
i went to bed thinking, i guess i should just be a high school teacher.